Dear Diary,
I read somewhere,
"I guess when you're young, you just believe there'll be many people with whom you'll connect with. Later in life, you realize it only happens a few times."
I saw people of my age buying their own house with their spouses, it is a good feeling, I mean I felt good for them but a sad kinda feeling for myself, seeing people getting engaged, some of getting married to the love of their lives and so on...
I don't how I am feeling but seeing these makes me somewhat sad, I always wanted to have a love story worth fighting for, I have craved for love my entire life and seeing people settling in their respective lives whether it is about finding a life partner, finding love, living their dream lives, buying own house makes me wonder what am I doing with my life, my life is so unstable, directionless, everything is blurry, I have always feared planning as planning things and later failing to achieve it for whatever reason has made me so spontaneous. Planned things never happen to me... I thought that I have finally found someone then I made the same mistake, trying to plan a life with him and boom the destiny played it's game...will I achieve anything in life? Whether it may a loving life patner, joyful life, a good name or career or many other things on my list, I always wanted to buy a house...I will someday but I need to work hard for it... maybe someday I will be able to fulfill my dreams and get everything I have craved or desired.