Dear Diary,
I think mere paas koi nahi hai ab ye sab batane ke liye na koi mil raha hai jo mujhe samjh paye i literally want to cry as much as possible .
Aaj hum apne baare me zero level se batane jaa rahe hai kyunki i truly want to tell someone my everything so that i feel relaxed but ab tumhe batayenge .
so starting from zero level that's my father's time jahan he lost his mother i guess when he was just 6 or 7 years old mere dada ji ne dusri shadi kar li vo bhi meri papa ki maa ki sagi bahen se toh uske baad me vo aurat maa kah lane layak thi bhi nahi kyunki bahut baar bina matlab ke baat me fasa ke mere papa ko vo maar khilwati thi aur mere dada ji ek no ke piyakad the toh vo aate marte the inko aur pata hai meri sagi dadi ko mere dada ne daru piike mara tha she was pregnant aur bache ke saath saath vo bhi mar gayi thi and then aise hi karte jhelete mere papa bade hue aur fir mummy bata ti hai ki shadi se pahle inhe ek bengali ladki se pyar ke chakkar me pade ye belonging from a rajput family dada ji ne shadi karwane ka faisla liya taki rajputo ki badnami na ho so it was 2004 when papa got married to my mother . mummy toh batati hai ki shadi ke baad bhi he used to go to phone booth and talk to her aur inki subah usko call karke good morning aur raat good night se jarur hoti thi it was like a mandatory for him to call her fir dheere dheere unke beech attachments kahtam hui aur mere maa papa ke beech achi bonding hui par meri jo papa ki step maa thi jise humlog behri bolte hai kyunki vo uncha sunti hai toh vo jo thi na vo jaise meri maa khana bana ke kaam karne jati thi baki ghar ka toh vo aur uski 4 beti aur dada ji sab log kha pi lete the aur mummy papa ke liye kuch nahi bachta tha ye log aise hi bhiikhe rahte the adhiktar bahut ladayi karte the dada ki kaam dhanda nahi karta hai and all fir ye log pressurize karne lage ki baal bacha bhi nahi ho raha hai kar ke fir in
2005 oct i was born ek nanhi si jaan jise meri maa bhi nahi chahti thi ki beti ho bolti hai ki paise the nahi aur kaise palte isliye ladki nahi chahiye thi aur ye ki use beti kabhi nahi chahiye tha fir jab hue the toh mere dada ne meri sakal nahi dekhi kyunki beti hue the balki uski aur step dadi ki 4 betiyan hai fir bhi and then mere hone se pahle bhi papa mummy ne kafi struggle dekhi hai jaise mere dada ye log ladai karke mummy ko pregnancy ki halat me bhi ghar se nikal dete the aur ye log station pe raat guzzarte the aur kaii baar toh jaise preganancy me bhookh lagti hai toh mummy cheeni roti kha leti thi toh ye behri ya uski beti cheeni chupa deti ki cheeni roti kha leti hai . ek baa mummy aam ke ped se ek aam tod ke kha li thi usme bhi ladai kar di thi aur ye itni neech thi behri ki ped ke aam ko gin ke rakhi thi aur bolne lagi pani di thi kya ped me jo aam tod ke kha li balki mummy sab kaam karti thi gahr ka still.....
fir mere hone ke around 6 mahine baad papa ki job lag gayi sab sahi tha utar chadhao sab ki life me hote hai vo sab normal hai gahr pe dada dadi ke saath ladai bhi chalte hi the lekin ek cheez thi mere papa ne kabhi meri mummy ke paksh me ladai me nahi bola adhiktar case me toh nahi hi bole kabhi . then mere jeevan me bhuchal aana chalu hota hai ....... that would be in next episode till then byee