Dear Diary,
I am pretty sure I have an ED or at least am bordering on one. I constantly fear when I eat if said meal will make me fat, and I immediately feel bad about eating. I'm always weighing myself, and if I'm dissatisfied I will try to work out, or run. I've forced myself to throw up multiple times- from guilt and fear of gaining weight. I have a friend who is super skinny and has the PERFECT figure, shes 4'3 and 102 lbs, with a hourglass figure; while I'm very box like- 4'6 (1/2) and 130 lbs. I feel disgusted every time weight or size gets brought up, everyone tells me I'm not fat or anything- but doesn't everyone get told that-Regardless if they are or aren't? I hate looking in mirrors and I avoid tight, revealing or tank tops like the plague. It's a pain, my friends are clueless, and they make jokes about me over eating all the time. And it does not help that stress eating is how I cope. (Im a freshman in high school btw)