April 12, 2024

April has come. A bit early to my liking. I don't know how to live for her. I miss my friends, new friends just never seems to fill the gap. I texted him again.. why of all years why do i bring misery upon myself when he's clearly not interested. If there was a degree on being a pushover, i'd be it. Completing masters even. For some reason i am here. It's crazy how its april. I thought i'd have the best time of my life only to end up like this. I am tired yet I'm not. Lonely yet I have always been. It's one way or the other. Maybe the dopamine and stuff changed a lot of things. I crave things that lasted not for a long time.. I am tired to be that guy who always thinks about others. When I am also hurting. Will I be ever happy? Idk.

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