Dear Stranger,
I have to get to work on something. I don't know what, it doesn't even need to be interesting, and it certainly doesn't need to be profitable. Just productive.
That's one of my problems. I abandon hobbies because I feel like I'm wasting time on something that's not valuable, won't make me any money, therefore is of no use to society. I want to feel useful. But what I want even more is to make dumb little crochet dolls for my loved ones without feeling guilty about "wasting my time". If someone has this problem I would immediately tell them that making art is never wasting time, but when it comes to myself, I can't even bring myself to think that what I do IS art.
Uuuuuyagvzlehev I wish I was a little witch in a cottage making art whenever I want, making really bad paintings of nature just to be outside, not caring about wether or not I'll ever be able to afford a house in my lifetime... Life's not like that though.
Still, I need to keep up my hobbies, I need to force myself. It's always good experience to just... Make stuff. Right?
I don't think I've lost my fire, someone just stole my lighter