December 25, 2023

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I am about to convey with my parents thaf i want to leave study, and in India people thinks it's worst, i don't know what my parents think. It's becoming very difficult for me to convey with them my situation, relationship between me and my parents are good no any hate between us.

I know i am a 1st year student. But now i don't want to continue this cource. I have failed 3/5 cources. I was a good student, they are satisfied with my earlier academic performance. They didn't know about this now about failing.

The main reasons this thought is coming in my mind is 3 main points:-

i)- I have now no more intrest in studies, i feels anxious whenever i started studying i am not able to see my future in these becuase i am thinking i will have to join business later and if this situation continue i will be a random average engineer (no hate), but if this happen, after 1-2 year of job(if got) they will call me to join business like my father's elder brother's son did. This will bring me to same place i am now but with experience. Even if i left college after 1 year, i will save a total of 25 lakhs, and it hurts me to pay that hefty amount even after getting 95+ %ile in JEE Mains and this all thing will be waste if i didn't continue my carrer in JOB. I will feel like i waste those 6 years.

ii)- If i leave studies, (yes i am gonna miss a lot of things), learning here from scratch will better and after 5 year i will be fully involved with it. I will not feel like time wasted. Maybe it's not that easy as we know how life is. 

iii)- How it will affect my presonal space with my partner in future, i think living in joint family doesn't gave you much presonal space. I have a SO and will really like to have a lot of quality moments.


My business is good, we are from Bihar, my father with his 2 brother's involved in it, our business is of trading scraps(kabaar) with 3 different segment. This work is expandable and have good futures. Although i know very little about it as they never get me involved in it even little. But i don't want to lose what my father build along these years of hardwork, everytime i thought of not coming back to join it, i feels i need to. I am no able to imagine me not joining this because i want to grow this. And if i have to come then why not now, and why waste those 25 lakhs.

These things are crossing my mind, i am confused.
I am thinking where should i get oponion or views. Thanks for reading this till now.

Sometimes i think "i am just thinking like a kid who is running from difficult situations and life is not that easy" please god show me the reality so i will start thinking correctly.

I don't write much, but when need to pour my heart i write it, Thanks again,

Merry christmas
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CarolDec 26, 2023

I would definitely continue with my studies. I know it seems hard sometimes, I am still in high school but I feel Hella depressed when I am studying. But you know what it's just a phase that will be over soon. You might regret your decision of dropping out in the future. Your family's business might be good now but there are chances that it won't be in the future. Businesses are unpredictable plus you would have to share it with your cousins you might face an issue in the future but with your degree you will always have a backup. You wouldn't have to worry about loosing your business. And honestly I don't think you should be thinking about your future partner and where you will be living with them just yet. Don't you think there's a lot of time till you actually settle down and start a family? Don't be soo worries over your future all the time . Just try to live in the moment. Cherish what you have now. Don't pry over something that might never come to you.

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