I am about to convey with my parents thaf i want to leave study, and in India people thinks it's worst, i don't know what my parents think. It's becoming very difficult for me to convey with them my situation, relationship between me and my parents are good no any hate between us.
I know i am a 1st year student. But now i don't want to continue this cource. I have failed 3/5 cources. I was a good student, they are satisfied with my earlier academic performance. They didn't know about this now about failing.
The main reasons this thought is coming in my mind is 3 main points:-
i)- I have now no more intrest in studies, i feels anxious whenever i started studying i am not able to see my future in these becuase i am thinking i will have to join business later and if this situation continue i will be a random average engineer (no hate), but if this happen, after 1-2 year of job(if got) they will call me to join business like my father's elder brother's son did. This will bring me to same place i am now but with experience. Even if i left college after 1 year, i will save a total of 25 lakhs, and it hurts me to pay that hefty amount even after getting 95+ %ile in JEE Mains and this all thing will be waste if i didn't continue my carrer in JOB. I will feel like i waste those 6 years.
ii)- If i leave studies, (yes i am gonna miss a lot of things), learning here from scratch will better and after 5 year i will be fully involved with it. I will not feel like time wasted. Maybe it's not that easy as we know how life is.
iii)- How it will affect my presonal space with my partner in future, i think living in joint family doesn't gave you much presonal space. I have a SO and will really like to have a lot of quality moments.
My business is good, we are from Bihar, my father with his 2 brother's involved in it, our business is of trading scraps(kabaar) with 3 different segment. This work is expandable and have good futures. Although i know very little about it as they never get me involved in it even little. But i don't want to lose what my father build along these years of hardwork, everytime i thought of not coming back to join it, i feels i need to. I am no able to imagine me not joining this because i want to grow this. And if i have to come then why not now, and why waste those 25 lakhs.
These things are crossing my mind, i am confused.
I am thinking where should i get oponion or views. Thanks for reading this till now.
Sometimes i think "i am just thinking like a kid who is running from difficult situations and life is not that easy" please god show me the reality so i will start thinking correctly.
I don't write much, but when need to pour my heart i write it, Thanks again,
Merry christmas
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