one day it won't hurt so much,
one day I will sit and talk to you about it,
one day maybe we will understand and forgive
each other and ourselves
one day I will stop asking myself,
and the ghosts of you,
what could I have done?
to keep you with me,
to not lose you,
to be the who you directed your smiles at,
to be able to feel happiness.
one day I will heal from the scars
that situations gave us, that we gave ourselves
not because it was wrong,
but because it was too right.
too much love can also suffocate us
and it did,
I hope we can stop drowning and
when we are finally on land again maybe we will meet
and maybe that day it won't hurt so much.
but not yet, that day is not here yet,
right now we are still struggling to stay afloat
right now we will are broken and bleeding
right now we still need to mend ourselves before we mend each other
so not right now, but one day,
I will sit and talk to you about it.