Dear Stranger,
I couldn't avoid her forever could I? I've had a pit in my stomach since I woke up, why does my own mother make me so anxious? I suppose the positive is that once this is over with me I won't have to see her again for a while.
My sister is stressed out too despite not talking to her anymore. Just the thought of her being in the same village as her makes her feel like throwing up.
She's not so bad. Right? Then why do I feel like this? Why I am I scared?
She's never hit me, she's said somd horrible things to me that stay with me to this day, but that's not so bad.
The hurtful words she said are the thoughts that pop up when I'm at my worst. It used to be her voice, belittling me, hurting me. Now it's my own.
But she's not so bad, I'm just too sensitive. Thank god M is here with me these two days, despite how she said she wishes we had some time alone together, I don't think I'm brave enough for that.
Love, C