Dear best-friend(s),
I am not sure if we are best friends anymore, I have no idea what the meaning of friendship or "bffs" is anymore, what defines friendships and what are signs that we are no longer friends. Even if i don't understand what we are now, or what we ever will be in future, if you will fondly remember me when drunk on a birthday and tell my stories to your kids or if you will scoff when my name shows up somewhere, even if we might just end up calling each other on only festivals and celebrations or if you come to me when you feel like the world is falling apart, either ways I will be here supporting you, no matter what we become in future, my heart will always smile seeing you live happily and become who you wish to be.
Yes I lack in understanding social protocols and yes I do things differently, yes I might choose my "values" over all people in life, but I know I love deeply, such that no matter what happens to us in future I will always look up to you and find happiness in your success, so I hope you succeed to heights higher than sky.
You both are the first people I ever called my "friends", my "comfort", my "home" you are the family I made myself and I couldn't have imagined us being so close yet so distant to each other but here we are, talking like strangers on internet do.
Everyday I ask myself if I did something wrong, if I could've done something better, if I had been similar to you both you wouldn't leave right? If I acted a little happier, if I showed more interest in things you both like but I don't understand why. I don't understand what went wrong, I tried so hard.
I am so lonely without you both, why did "trios never work" have to be true why did I stop feeling a part of "us" 2 years ago? Why am I now the second option always.
I know you loved me and cherished me and I am thankful for all happy memories but maybe the reason I couldn't fake it anymore was because I had been for too long.