Dear Diary, I feel a little down. I don’t know how to trust recruiting agents or companies. Don’t know what I want to do. I have some ideas for what kind job I would have. But once I searched and read those job ads, it feels it’s impossible for me. I don’t know but I am basically very careless and assuming while I read instructions. Meh… I got email from my boss that I didn’t understand my task and I need to do it again. It’s not a real job. It’s part time job. Nothing connected to my future. Ugh…
My little sister was born with Down syndrome. I am only sibling of her. My egg generators stopped growing at age of 11. So no ability to give a birth. And so far I guess I am asexual. So i don’t expect myself getting married so far. I often have depression periods past some years. I need to take care of my parents when they get very very older. And also myself… I am 23 becoming 24 this year. Never worked as full time. I am not even healthy enough to work 5 days a week.
Now I am trying to change the health part. I go to hot yoga class. I work out at home little bit. I go to walk under the sun almost every day. I eat healthy these days. I constantly clean my room. I manage to keep my room tidy enough so far.
Hmm I tend to worry about things I wrote above. But most of these are not changeable. I know I need take care of only what I can change. And I am doing right.