Dear Diary,
I couldn't sleep last night. I lay awake until 7 am. Hour after hour, I stressed about my internship starting next week. Hour after hour I missed and cried over my sweet baby cat, over which my boyfriend drove last week.
Every morning, my boyfriend wakes up to me feeding the kittens, unloading and loading the dishwasher, cleaning the entire kitchen, making him coffee, and making him breakfast. This morning, that didn't happen, as I slept in until 10 am.
What do I wake up to? My boyfriend standing in the middle of the filthy kitchen, making himself breakfast with a cup of coffee in his hand. I got so angry, but I decided not to show it, my dad would hear.
He moved in yesterday and paid to live in our garage for two months, whilst building himself a new home.
When I asked him to please unload the dishwasher as I do it every single day and I'm not feeling up for anything today, he snarkily replied, "I'll do it, but it's petty to say since you did something yesterday, I have to do it today."
I wanted to lose it. I lost my baby, I am so stressed about next week, he's on vacation while I have to learn a completely new coding language in a week. But I'm petty, for asking him to just for today unload the dishwasher. I couldn't say anything, I knew it would just turn into a massive fight.
I made myself a coffee and found this place. Hoping writing my words down, would help.
I hate the way he makes me feel and I miss my baby so, so much.