January 01, 2023

Dear Diary, I may have dropped a greeting and message directly to you but I barely said anything about my sentiments and how I felt towards you these last 12 months so there has been a lot of things left unsaid, and I think its better to keep it here. Words aren’t probably enough to express how much gratitude and appreciation I have towards you (proceeds to write a long ass explanation). You’ve always been a source of strength throughout the semester as well as the past semesters. Somehow, without you even noticing, you’ve pulled me through the difficult times that I’ve faced. It’s as if a path has been carved for me whenever I couldn’t navigate my destination.Through trying times, I would fall down on my knees and agonize over my struggles but fortunately, I had someone to look up to. I could instantly think of you whenever I was in a pinch and move forward. It didn’t matter if I was tired or struggling at the moment, as long as I could think of the things that my friends would tell me about you; i.e crossing paths with you while you’re reading a book or staying up late at night to review and so on, then I was able to keep going. These things helped me cultivate a will and desire to remain steadfast amidst the fatigue or difficulty. It didn’t occur to me all the time though but it did occur when I felt the lowest of lows, when it mattered the most and I think that’s what got me this far.  It might seem simple to be “sugarcoated” by these words of mine (I don’t usually sugarcoat my words btw) but they were enough to motivate me overcome what there was to overcome. They were all I needed at those times at I think that’s what matters the most. It would be an exaggeration to say that you were a salvation, perhaps a “blessing” would be more befitting. Which also makes sense because you were all I could’ve possibly asked for in my prayers. If I asked for something that could motivate me whenever I’m down, you happened to be there. If I asked to be surrounded by great people, you were included among them (someone who would impart wisdom and practical knowledge whenever you could; tbh I really appreciate the tips that you would give me about productivity it helped me quite a lot). If I asked to be granted happiness, your existence proved to be just that. The joy that I feel whenever I get the opportunity to have a conversation with you, ask about your day, listen to your fascinating and wholesome stories, is just something else. If fate destined us to meet at one point in our lives; whether it would eventually separate us into different directions or not, then it would probably be the only time that I could be grateful to fate. Fate has rather been unforgiving to me in the past, but crossing paths wit you made me disregard that. You helped make a journey that was rather demoralizing, worthwhile. I’m glad that I could be one of those people that got the chance to come across someone that is as special and pure as you are. If you were to read this (which may not be possible since it’s posted through a private link pinned to a private IG story) you would already know why I admire you a lot (not just someone that could look up to).    I sincerely wish nothing but the best for you since you’re ought to have them and it wouldn’t make sense if you didn’t. I probably can’t stand hearing that you’re dealing with a heavy burden or struggle. If I could only send my support and cheer you on directly whenever it happens then I wouldn’t even hesitate to do so but I don’t think that that would be necessary, especially when I’m not obligated to….and I’m not entitled to approach you that way. But one thing’s for sure, I’ll be there when you need someone to listen to you. You have your friends as well!! Heck, you have the heavens alongside you since…you’re an angel disguised as a human..gosh kahiya talaga neto pag makita mo to shuta hahaha but anyway I said what I said and I feel at ease na napalabas ko na. Although I haven’t told you about this upfront but atleast there was an outlet for me to spill what I’ve been meaning to tell you but couldn’t.