December 28, 2022

Dear Diary, Hello I have decided to try and say my feelings ¨out loud¨ so this is the closest im getting. So when I was 7 my mom was a drug addict and it was kind of normal to me for the longest time, then others started to talk about it and then I realized that something was not normal. I am now 12+ and over these months my mother has fled off to New Hampshire with her new boyfriend and she had been gone for over 8 months. My grandfather was the only one with us and then me and my 2 sisters went with our fathers... except my youngest sister, her dad has been in jail for over 2+ years, he has gotten out but we do not want him in her life. I have started a new school I like my old one better, I feel there is really no place for me in there. I am Hispanic and i feel that a lot of the cultures there are Caucasian. I am not racist at all but the people there are. i have a couple friends there Aidan, he is Asian, and Katjana and she is Caucasian. They have really grown my spirit out to making new friends and they are in my math class so I have a lot of confidence in speaking out answers not so much questions. My parents are kind of complicated, my parents never got married and when they broke up my dad became a stalker, he put a camera  and a microphone in my mothers phone and he proceeded to take her money she she hid it. 9+ years later they have spread apart more and hate each other more than ever. I have done Christmas on my dads side and it was great! But my moms side said maybe later in this month, my grandmother died on Christmas so its been very hard on everyone but that is still no reason why Christmas should be moved forward. This felt very overwhelming for awhile and now i have gotten through it. If your family is like this please express your feeling out on paper or online, for me therapy did not help me. Bye Diary....