Dear Diary,i'm doing really bad mentally i'm starting high school next year at the end of January but i really don't think that i'll make it to high school. I have severe depression and bpd among other mental health illnesses when i went to see my psychiatrist today she told me she thinks i'm not taking therapy seriously but in reality i act like i don't care because i care too much.
I tried to kill myself yesterday but it didn't work but today i promised myself i would try to get better so that my psychiatrist doesn't drop me as her patient i flushed down my remaining meds but now i really regret it coz i really just want to die i've started cutting deeper than ever before and i'm just so broken bro. I want to be admitted in hospital but there's not many mental health hospitals in my country and now i don't know what to do i just really want to die omg.
i'm so disappointed in how my life turned out i'm turning 15 next year but it's just so sad knowing i might not even make it till then.
I really don't know what to do