Dear Diary,
It’s my first time writing and I’m starting to like this way better than actually writing. So today I gotta text from Wills girlfriend asking when was the last time we hungout lol I knew this day would come I just didn’t know when. To be honest I’m surprised it hasn’t happened sooner. I told girlie the truth and said it’s been over a year but Will called me saying to tell her it was 10 years ago lol. Guys ain’t shit prime example. I told her that she doesn’t have to worry about me because I’m just there to get weed lol it’s crazy this keeps happening to me. I never do anything but I’m always the one to get a phone call from the girlfriends. I hope they work it out because that would be a shame if they breakup over that when it happened over a year ago and on top of that I don’t want him at all. So she should stay lol. Im kinda sad though because I want to be in some sort of relationship with an actual cute guy that likes me. Not one that I settle for and squint my eyes to pretend that they are fine lol. I’m 30 years old and I know I have time but with my job the guys I interact with are old and ugly, or I embarrass myself badly by hitting on dudes out of my league and getting dropped hard. That’s why I’m trying not to care bout love and meeting new people, no one has peaked my interest or is interested in me like that at least not around here. That’s why I wanted to get that flight attendant job so I can get out of this bubble I’m in. I mean I love the bubble but when it comes to meeting people it’s not the right place. I’m just going to keep being patient and wait for my mister right. Just don’t judge me when I get on here whining that I’m lonely lol Bout the flight attendant job I didn’t get it. Which I’m more relieved than disappointed bout not getting it because then I’d have to stop weed and coke. I could and was mentally preparing to do so but just the fact that He got the job and I didn’t really doesn’t sit well with me. I mean I’m happy that he got the job it’s a great opportunity but on the other hand did he really get the job? When he had his boyfriend go into to system and fix his answers and also give him the answers word for word so he can get the job to then get denied on the interview but had the boyfriend talk to the head boss to get her to look at it. He offered to do the same with me but I told him no because that’s just not how to get a job especially an important one like that. I’d rather be picked on my own merit. Gotta go fuel United