Dear Diary,
So last night i had a whirlwind few hours. I took the kids to the park, and my daughter told me that her mum had told about our situation.
She told our daughter that if she kept misbhaving that we would split up.
Thats a sh1tty thing to say, i havent, and wont, confront my ex about that comment as i dont want to make things worse.
However i comforted my daughter and told her its not on her, or my son, its on me and her mum, and that we need to take a step back, re assess and start again.
She now has it in her head that shes the reason we have split up.
I got told by my ex last night before bed that she told her parents n friends we have split up. I was suprised, as i had been telling my friends that we were taking a break and she wanted time to herself and with the kids.
I got hardly any sleep, i feel like sh1t, i look like sh1t, and yet my ex is going along almost relieved. Shes more talkative, more open, its like a weight has been lifted.
Im gutted, 18 years, never a bad argument and fall out till now, and this is how she reacts. She may have checked out the relationship, but im still very much in it, and it hurts :( and i know its hurting my daughter as well.
Not a good day.