Dear Diary,
For the first time in a long time I feel happy internally.... I mean I am happy but there are some things which bother me but I just avoid thinking about it... Though it's not sure if that will happen, but the possibility of it makes me really happy... I will get to know about it in a few days, maybe today also. If it happens... A lot of my self esteem issues will also resolve. I mean even thinking about it makes me so happy. I wish I had thought of it earlier when Bae told me about it.
The thing is love and career are the two most important things for me. I can say that I am 100% happy when it comes to love. Our bond is something rare and special. But when it comes to career I am pretty unhappy. I also have self destructive tendencies... The only positive thing about my career right now is I love my job, and I have learnt a lot. But all my friends are earning double than me. I just let go of so many great opportunities. And now I am still getting sub par salary.
Tomorrow is my first interview... I cleared the written round. Now I have the technical round tomorrow. I am not well prepared. I also got a call from my dream company today...
Anyways... I can't tell you what I am happy about, its none of the above things. But if that happens, that will be one of the best things that happens to me ... Because in my mind I can finally feel that the rape incident didn't cost me my career. So... Will it happen? No idea... And 2ndly , getting a new job and 3rdly getting certified.
So, when the above 3 happens, I guess, I will believe I have won back what I lost. So.... Lets see.... This week is important for me.
I think its still unlikely that the best case scenario will happen... But its not that far fetched too... In the next 1.5 hours I might get to know. I will let you know... If not its still ok I guess... I can't expect much here. I will inform you what happened. Damn... I need to study but I don't want to because I am hoping it happens.
8:25pm: No news yet
It is happening... Yaaaay!!!! Its one of the happiest days of my life!! I am soooooooo happy!!!!!!!!! So much....
1 problem solved. 2 more to go...
Regards,
Anne