Dear Diary, I dont think I'm going to get sleep tonight, sadly theres too much of everything. I have to keep up the facade of being helpful to help someone I'm not really qualified to help, and me myself I have a million and 1 problems to deal with myself so that sucks.
though I'm not alone I have a amazing S/O I wont share details about them but they are amazing. as most relationships go. but they were there to talk.me out of cutting myself the second time. and they presently showed me this app called "magic fluid" it is great for me since it's basically the greatest sensory toy ever. it has pretty colors and it responds to touch. it's a shame though that it doesnt have a tactile aspect either. but I'm sire if it had that as well it would overstim me more than it already does.
and since y'all didn't ask imma