April 20, 2022

Dear Diary,

I hate crushes 😭😭😭😭😂

How tf did I get a crush on this boy.

But really he's so cute🥺, I love watching him laugh, smile. 

I love listening to him talk about his interests and what he likes.

I love watching him dance, I love spending time with him.

I love it when he teases me and I love teasing him.

I love reading the poems and songs he writes. I could listen to him talk for hours even if it's just about random things. I love holding his hand, it gives me butterflies in my stomach and it's just... different.

Anyway, this is...idk even know.

I told myself that I won't have a boyfriend in the first year of college because it was too early, now here I am falling for this boy in my department.

I feel stupid honestly, Idk why. I feel like I should be focused on my books and not catching feelings. ( although I'm not failing in school and I'm actually doing a pretty good job🙃)

Why do I feel weak for liking someone 🤦

It's stupid.