Dear Diary,
Nothing specific brings me here today. I actually don't feel like doing anything, so I thought I may just write to you =D.
Usually this happens, when i think about a lot of things to do and nothing sorts of completes. Like i do one thing for 10 mins, another for 15 mins and so on. End of the day, nothing much achieved and i feel overwhelmed, that i still have 50 things to do.
Its partially also because i am not able to decide priority of anything. And also few things are difficult and few other things are very time taking and i am not sure, if i am ready to commit any time to one particular thing.
Also, the time i have apart form kiot in life has shrinked to veryyy little now. Example i start at 10 and leave at almost 10 after my dinner etc.
Post that, somedays, (i know one may get sad after reading this, but I must be honest with you.) somedays, I have to just talk to someone over whatsapp chat, so they don't feel insecure. I know, i know, people keep saying that dont run after money or work all the time, and give some time to relations etc, but i don't know if its bad or not bad, that I want to work on things i love and although i value relations, I dont know how right it is to put efforts in relations.
Anyway, the thing is, i have too tooo little time everyday, and in this little time, there are always some sort of emergencies, like centen is about to receive locks. I need to fix the website. Until now, it has been coordinating with supplier and shipment agency. And there is a constant worry in my head, HOWWW on earth, we'll ever be able to hire people.
I realized, my past few months, I have spent entirely trying to hire people and i haven't succeeded. The people i hired weren't good, and today we are at square zero, at the same point i started 2 years ago.
I'll write about this part later in detail. I want to scream sooo hard.
I haven't learn any new course in a long while, i keep telling myself that i'll learn AI, but the course would need some dedication and time, i dont have. after many efforts, i fixed my sleep cycle, now i am able to sleep by 12 or 1. I dont want to again mess up with sleep(I dont want my dark circles to grow any further now).
I have to get out of this. I'll write to you about that also later.
All and all, i am too anxious about what to do out of so many things I should be doing, and then i don't feel like doing anything.
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Centen
I haven't told you about centen yet, right ?
As we decided in our bday resolution that i would have atleast one side hustle this year, i started this, We(me and dawrani) gave it the name centen. No specific meaning of the word.
I want to build one place for all imported stuff, at centen people would find all imported stuff. From all over the world. Right now i started with China because china seemed most easier one on supply side and i picked smart home products, easiest one in deman.
Before starting, I was super super excited about it, but now, I feel it's too tedious, a traditional business for probably very less earnings (compared to what I could be making with my intellectual job). But I am not doing it for myself, if established, I would hand it over to someone in the family, but I doubt if that will work. But now, I have jumped into it, invested a lot of money, cant come out.
But i am not able to think of other products, i think i jumped in too quickly, without even thinking what products we would sell. BUTTTT, i was frustrated of just thinking also, we thought so much and did so less. So this time i just rushed.
Now, there are wierd things i have to manage with kiot also. Where would i stock up, I cannot keep at kiot's address. I have to talk to ashik for this now. I dont know what we'll do with curtain drivers also. Accounting, warehousing, importing from other countries, selling etc and all for very little quantities of products. And during all this, i have to be Chief Engineer of a company in which there are no other leaders(for sure, no one feels the responsibility). And I have other ambitions of learning great stuff and giving time to health and family also.
Doesn't look easy peasy, I may go mad.
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On top of this, are my sudden blues, days when I miss her and feel myself with that sigh.
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But I am not weak, and I am not giving up. Some things will be delayed, but I won't let them be delayed too much. I will offload a few things and finish a few things one by one.
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Tomorrow -
1. Talk to ashik for warehouse.
2. Talk to Sandeep and list the locks in CRM.
3. Figure out how will be do accounting for these products.
4. Search for other product categories.
5. Look for more profiles, schedule more interviews.
6. Postpone TOD app update
7. Pick a course on AI, keep the target for weekends.
8. Socialize less.
Goodnight ❤️