October 27, 2021
Dear Reader,
For sure you might be reading this from the other side of the world at this very moment.
Thank you for taking time to read this. ☺
Just to debrief you, heh, I'm married with 2 kids.
Motherhood is everything to me but sometimes, i couldn't help hating on myself because I'm such a fcked up person. (at least, that's how i feel about myself)
All my life, I've been sucking up at almost everything.
And I am just so scared to fck my most favorite role in this lifetime - motherhood.
So scared that sometimes i lose myself from trying so hard.
Sometimes i realize that I've been becoming yoo hard on myself. Afraid to make mistakes. Afraid to not being seen by my kids. Afraid not being loved by them. I dunno, sometimes i just so scared about everything.
Maybe it's just post-partum or whatever.
Whatever it is, it's eating the shit out of me. 😔
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