Dear Diary, with my mom’s big help, I finally wrote and sent the email I had been procrastinated like a month... I’m so scared imagining that it will be read and me reading the reply tomorrow morning. And also scared of the fact that I need to make a phone call to the office to skip my shift too. Due to this depressed feeling. I was kinda soaked into my bed. But I feel okay now. is it because I’m writing this diary entry, or a night to sleep ahead of me now? it’s shorter tho. Well if I feel okay tomorrow morning then i’ll go to work.
About the email…
It’s not a scary thing at all in real world. They won’t blame me. I know that. Because they are real adults. But I am scared because of my self esteem problem.
‘Feeling awkward’ Feeling as if i’m a complete foreigner
That feeling swallowed up and I lost my basic ability of judgement.
I had to write the email one month earlier.
But I couldn’t help it.
I did my best at least.