Dear Diary,
Do you know what happens when you remove all good memories of someone and only remember the bad ones? At this point, you can move on, so remember all the bad things that happened to you, but you decided to forgive him because you loved him, and you tried to find an excuse for him to save the relationship... now is the time to remember and put it to good use. You attempted to save the relationship, but it is no longer your responsibility to repair what he has destroyed.