Won't be irritable or overthink from now

 

Dear Diary,

I am writing after a few days, because I broke my previous phone out of anger. This is something I have never done before, I never broke anything before. I realize my personality has changed. I don't behave the way I should nowadays. 


Yet another fight with AM yesterday, I get angry without reason, say things I shouldn't say. And I am being toxic. At least till a few months ago, I was happy with my personality. Only thing I wasn't happy was about some habits. And that I am lazy. Now I feel there are so many things to work on. 


First thing I did was saying sorry. 2nd thing I did was said I will work on them. 3rd thing I need to do is find a solution. I think there are 3 reasons. 

1. Not having a social life, I like being around people specially men, I find the urge to be a better version of myself. 

2. Not doing exercise, doing exercise made my frustration go away

3. Not having anyone to touch or flirt with. 


For 1st. There is no solution,. But I will try to have get togethers and go out. For 2nd, I can join a dance class or gym. But I would rather practice at home now. For 3rd, I will do something about it. 


I already found a solution for overthinking, I express everything. But it is bad in a way that now I say some messed up things. So, anyways. Everything will be alright.



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