Dear Diary, it's come to my attention that the more I grow spiritually, the less bullshit I'm willing to put up with others. I have made changes in my friend group, and it's getting lonely. I already felt lonely before, since the friends I've had barely reached out to me. The only time they would reach out to me was to dump all of their baggage onto me, and click off the phone the moment they were done unloading. A long time college friend of mine won't even see my point of view. Even after I tell people what they're doing and how I feel, they defend themselves and attack me instead.
Everything in my life is great, and I'm thankful every day for it. I am struggling with depression on this matter. There's always this little part of me that's not being satisfied, and it may be my ego, but I'm doing better than before. I'm taking time for myself, learning patience and living my truth. It's quite possible that the trauma I've expereinced has left me with this continuous feeling of isolation. It's been there for so long, but over time it's getting lighter on my shoulders. This too shall pass.
That's it for today. Take it easy y'all.