January 28, 2021

Dear Diary,

I haven’t sleep that well last night and I woke up very late today. I do struggle with the energy levels, especially in the mornings. I need to do something about it ASAP. I am in the process of trying some holistic shit, and I will see how it goes. So far it is only average taste and nothing more. No time to waste my life, right?

Yesterday I had a phone call from my Doc. She gave me Diazepam (re: panic attacks and bad sleep) and two week sick chit. My manager wasn’t very happy. I could easily tell. Do you’ve got this as well? That even with simple text you can “feel” if someone is unhappy/ pissed off? I do, and I felt that yesterday from her. Bad vibes. Obviously she wasn’t able to be mad openly... but I know she was, and it is not paranoya. 

Today drags a little. 

So far I fed myself (healthy yoghurt and berries), drank my medicine (tased as shit as usual), went to post office and shops to buy bits and bobs, and I am back home. Now I am waiting for irobot to do its job with the floors and washing to finish the final spin. Then... I don’t know. 

What to do? Any ideas anyone?