I told myself that I would journal more, however I really have not felt the need to. I feel the stress and tension and depression that I was overwhelmingly feeling last year was due to some factors that I have escaped.
My friends. I had these friends who I thought were real. I thought would always be there for me. However I realized that they were so eager to throw me under the bus and make me look bad the second they had the opportunity to. Everyone was telling me "it's okay, maybe you guys will work things out", however I decided that I did not want to this time. Although looking at some old pictures makes me sad at times, I have realized that there are better people out there who won't be so deceitful and toxic to me. It is just another chapter that has closed in my life and it is time to start and move onto the next one. And that mindset is what brings my mind some peace.
My job. Previously, I was working nonstop. Possibly 60-70 hours a week sometimes. The "Monday-Friday 9am-5pm" was looking a lot more like Monday-Saturday 7am-7pm and sometimes even on Sundays. There were moments I found myself working 3 weeks in a row. Receiving phone calls and text messages nonstop from my staff when people would not show up or things would not go right. I never really realized how important, or how much I needed for that matter, me time. Time to relax. Time to cope. Time to live my life how I would like to. I told myself this year that I will focus more on me. That I will learn to enjoy the little things in life and enjoy life more.
So by switching my job, I will work 3-4 days a week, and my off time will be my off time. I surprised my roommate with a trip to Seattle and Portland for Christmas and booked that for May, one of my best friends is getting married in Florida in June and I am looking to book that sometime soon, and I got tickets to my first country concert for June. This year is my time for me.