Dear Diary,
I'm still battling with the decision of whether or not to reach out to my half sister &brother, and Robert's widow. I'm still trying to understand it all.
What good will it do? He's gone.
But I have to know.
Did he love me after all?
Did he want to try to find me?
How do I move forward with my life if I don't know these answers.
Would my little sister & brother want to know me?
Do they hate him?
Did he try to do better by them?
Hard to breathe when I think about it.