September 22, 2020

Dear Diary, my stomach is in knots. My husband to be has neck and back surgery on Thursday. He seems to be pretty calm but I am Very nervous and scared. He is a big guy and not exactly young (63) I try do things that are calming but nothing helps. Why does he seem so calm when I'm not? You would think it would be the other way around. Not that I want him to be scared.  So confused.