Dear Diary, back to writing over and over again, glad for this new experience online, a lot is going on, first I am feeling misunderstood again, or hah not understood at all, my loneliness yesterday and the miserable feeling that I've been through helped me to wakeup, I've found myself again so emotional, depending on others, wasting my time, even tho I have filed my program for the week and I should be happy and excited I've felt like a storm on my chest and my breath became so heavy that when I was lonely at midnight and everybody falling asleep, my tears couldn't stop falling, I've seen motivational videos, talked to myself , thinking like why I am feeling like single or I've broke up with someone!! my partner is supposed to be by my side like in these times, but instead, he chooses to argue! so again the conclusion is to focus on yourself, pick yourself up, don't wait for someone else to do what you should be doing for yourself, and give that time, love and care to yourself first...
so now I'm focused on goals I've decide to work for it instead of chatting with others about it and wasting my energy.
I've woke up early go for a walk ( even tho I wasn't able to open my eyes I was looking like a potato:p ) and I haven't checked my phone till I've finished my morning new routine ,and I try to avoid wasting my time on social media even with my friends and partner bcz u know after feeling alone when you need anybody by you're side you think like now that I am good alone they don't deserve my time
i hope it will be the first and last negative diary.. <3