Dear Diary, I really couldn't sleep last night I sat on live stream all night watching people talking to people this the main thing I been complaining about I want to change it so bad I hate that I depend on being or interacting with other people online I'm from the ninety's I know how real relationship work how u have to walk up to people n talk this Internet n cell phone shit just getting weirder n weirder like I miss the days were I didn't just sit on my phone all day shit I can go sit outside all day it still don't change nothing cuz it's not like the late nineties or early 2000 were every n anyone was being human n social this socail media shit just gone get worse I have all these fake friend ships n relationship n it got to the point that now I can just ask people for money on cash app I feel like I just got paid n all the homeless people asking for a dollar I'm just tired of this new generation shit people ain't even really having sex anymore either cuz they watch have realitionship with porn stars on live it like gaming addiction is really fucking u up in the long run you start to depend on this game Wich leads you to cope with other sits watching porn now a days is like playing GTA online it's sad everything is becoming about live streams relationships n friend ships I was actually talking to a guy on YouTube about the situation he agrees he says put the phone down but he's 19 he don't get it you go outside it is not the same as when I was a young adult or even a teen I can be off my phone all day I just won't be talking n today I really feel like killing myself because of this right here I woke up to do the same things everyday my financial situation is different than everyone else's my situation make me feel like I'm married or some shit like the court won't allow me to have my money In my name so I can't cash my own check but I can still pay my own bills don't make sense they say oh your not good for your own well being but let me take u to cash it n I'll give u your bill money n u can pay your own bills whats the fucking difference idk but I feel like dying today I'm just tired of waking up every day to this live streams situation im getting really fucking pissed off I got to do therapy today I guess I'll express how I feel but she ain't gone do much but listen n be nosey