Dear Diary,
I'm a doctor, I know how to treat other people's depression. Then why can't I treat myself? Why can't I come out of depression? Whenever I think that finally I'm overcoming depression it just comes back. Life is already hard enough. Why does depression keep clinging onto me? I see negativity everywhere. I know it's the depression talking. I know what I need to do. My knowledge says something and my mind says something else. It's so hard. It's harder for me because if I go to a psychiatrist for treatment they'll judge me cuz I'm a doctor. They are my professors. And this coronavirus situation is making my life harder. Pandemic + depression is not a good combination for a doctor. Let's hope that we depressed doctors can win both..