June 08, 2020

Dear Diary,

Hes acting weird again

I dont get what's wrong with him

He kept saying he was a mistake because his mom got mad at him for going to his cousins soccer game without permission. 

He said he was a mistake and he wanted to cry and when I asked him why he didnt just talk with her about it he said he didnt want to and he wanted to get to sleep. He did the summer workouts this morning so I dont blame him for being tired. He had a long day and I knew he was going to go to sleep early today but I never imagined he would go to sleep that fast.its almost like he didnt even want to talk today. I feel like hes mad or keeps thinking about what the other person said to him the other day but it's not my place to be up in his business. 

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On another topic I talked to a friend of mine. She told me that I should stop being friends with him and that he was a realy bad influence to me. I dont blame her for thinking what she does think of him but it's only because I changed from before. She has always been the type of person who likes to punish the ones who need to be punished and so was I. But now since I met him I havent done that and before I used to use people as my pawns but now I just put all my efforts into him and my family.  To any of them whatever I do is never enough but I just have to keep trying. I just have to remember that my only goal is to make everyone around me happy.