Dear Diary, today XX gave me a book to read, a book I felt that was talking about me. A story about a girl that loved a men who used her and never come back. I know that my relationship with my ex wasn't that good and we did some things together but sure he was no asshole he loved me and he proposed to me. He thought that I loved him as much as he did, but sadly I didn't. I couldn't handle the love he gave me and I wasn't ready for commitment, so looked forward to him to hurt me so that I can find a reason to run. Run as the one who got hurt. I truly tried so hard loving him but poor me.