February 18, 2020

Dear Diary,

I hate my life. I hate him and I hate myself. I never thought that I will be a woman who in the end would want to die or want someone to die just to end all of my misery.

I am emotionally and verbally abused for 12 years now. There is no escape. There is no other way but be miserable. I wish it will be easy to get out from this. Even breathing is exhausting. 

I wish my life is simple and normal like everybody else. Like getting out with a relationship like this means to "live" and not"die".

I wished I changed my mind  from the very last minute before jumping in this life. 

I am tired. I am exhausted and I just want it to end.

xoxo

Truth