Dear Diary, I think I'm doing better today. Yeah it is still really really hard but I'm trying. Tomorrow is Monday and we need to do this whole thing again, but we can do it. But the thing is that I need to see him again tomorrow, which is bad because I can't get over him like this, but also when he's not coming to school then I'll be really sad too, because I... I miss him, I miss his cute voice and his soft smile, I miss his kind heart and his love, but not for me, to her. They're so so close and I just wish it was me. My friends keep asking me what's wrong and am I okay and of course I tell them I'm fine and I'm happy and I love my life but it's not like that. I'm telling myself every morning when I wake up, every night when I go to sleep that I'm fine, but it's hard, hard to tell yourself that it's fine and everything is gonna be okay when you know the fact that it's not gonna be okay. But I'm trying. And today I decided that I'm gonna make myself look pretty, I'm gonna impress him, well I'm trying so let's see what happens. :)