Dear Diary,
The day dint start very well today, i got irritated at mom once when she kept asking me to go buy the milk begore 10. Because after that he'll charge a rupee extra per packet for cooling charges. I got irritated and i threw money in front of her. 😑. I know it was very bad, i hurted her. She cried. I am the apple of her eyes and it really did hurt her so much. She does this for us, she's saves money for me only. But Its only 2 Rs. And i remember how when we were growing up, she used to cut a kg of beatle nut for 10rs. work whole day and warn 20-30 Rs. Thats how she was supporting our school fees or our new shoes. I understand where are we coming from. Where she os coming from. But over the period, i have changed. Now i spend 2thousands, 20thousands, just to have a little fun.
I dont know what should i be doing. Because on one side i know that if my mom tries to save those pennies by putting so much effort, i ahould not be throwing those in air.
But then i alao know that this is the onluly life i have. And i can do these things only today. If i dint do these today, then i may always feel that i am missing on things. Just to save pennies. Which i am not sure if will really help me ever.
But i dont want to hurt her either. or disrespect what she does. She only does it thinking about us.