Dear Diary, Why am I here? Why must I be made to wake up everyday to this empty life.? Why cant i make him love me? I'm in a relationship now for 10 years, but its empty. Loveless, emotionally void of all affection! I cry, he says just smile. I break down he says be happy. We fuss and fight and cuss and spew hate, just to fall back into the pit after a hour or two. A pat on the shoulder or a peci on the cheek is showing me his love. I need a hug ,an embrace, to feel arms around me squeezing tight and a whisper in my ear that I'm loved. It would only take a short minute, but it never comes. I need that human connection. I cant stand having a roommate that I have to sleep with! I just dont want to die like this.