September 22, 2019

Dear Diary, I found out that my dad has another child. A one-year boy. When I was eight, I always praying to have a little sibling. But not from another woman! How could he do that to me! 

I hate myself for preteding that I don't know anything about it. And I hate myself either for keeping that fact from my mother. I just scare. I hate my dad for it, but I'm scare if I don't keep my mouth shut, I will lose him. My dad whom I hate and I love at same time.

I hate that baby. I hate that woman. If that to human show up in front of me someday, I swear I'm gonna punch them really hard. Or maybe I'm gonna leaving the city. So far away. After crying my heart out like today.

I never imagined that I can got a painful betrayal like this. Not after all of my dad love. 

I want to run away. I want go to some where that really far that there are only hope, joy, and laugh. I want forget everything in here. I want to live where I couldn't think any pain. Can someone take me to a beautiful place and laugh with me? I am so tired in here.