Dear Diary,
I feel so lost. For 26 years now. I really hate my family. They are the main reason I feel this way. Even I graduated, they still burden me with their miseries. I can't see to get out from they cage they once put me in.
I am so tired of life. Of everything. I feel so worthless. I am having a hard time to adapt. I've been plagued by the miseries that have accumulated in me for all these years.
I feel like a lost cause. There's no one around who can help me. I only have myself. A self that is alienated by everyone. Everyone does hate me.
There are times that I feel enpowered and I'm able to influence others in a positive manner. But I run out of it at times because I feel so ill about myself.
I feel so stuck in an unredeemable state of misery. There is no end to this. I feel like the worst person to exist. Life is painful and just full of bitterness.