September 10, 2019

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Dear Diary, I'm starting to realize that my husband is getting to 👴for me, he hate having to celebrate anything even 16 of marriage and 22 years of relationship, he don't understand I'm still a young woman and I value our 20+years but he's making me feel like I shouldn't care about it,  if I stop caring about it eventually I'll stop caring about him,  that's not what I want but I'm not beyond it anymore. I'm bored, and he's boring,  he punishes me for having  his kids smh he never wants a babysitter,  he just wants me to sit at home while he works and then have a few beers then come home and expect me/us to be cool, right now in this moment,  🖕 HIM YES FUCK HIM, one day he was out of hair product, well, I thought he was out because I seen the empty bottle in the trash, and without hesitation I ran out to get more and he talked shyt to me about it, days later I was out all day with kids they were hungry I had about $20 left instead of just feeding them I decided to buy chicken to feed us all,  he talked shyt about that too!  all that Lil sweet shyt I been doing for years are over nomo back rubs helping to take of his boots after work, all those text I send at the same time evry single day is over, the oil massages after every shower, not happening, buying the chocolates and cookies he loves so much finished, all them pedicures for his achy feet is feneto. I'm so over my husband yesterday was our 16th wedding anniversary,  he was angry because I wanted to celebrate so I decided I didn't wanna go anywhere because it shouldn't be a forced occasion.  I want a divorce but I don't my kids to suffer he's an excellent father I have no complaints about that, I guess I'll have to put my misery aside for their happiness. 

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CompromiserSep 14, 2019

But

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CompromiserSep 14, 2019

Thank you I really appreciate you because I don't have any other entity to talk to buy God .

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CompromiserSep 14, 2019

*Has already manifested*

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CompromiserSep 14, 2019

Sometimes I think I'm ungrateful because he a wonderful provider I know he has a lot on his plate, but I'm neglected by him, when we have talks he always expresses how he would never want me to consider another man, yet he keeps me on the back burner work and children comes before me. He has his adult daughter living here she's 30 I've raised her since she was 7 I've known her since she was 5 I've cared for this girl as if she were mine I allow her mom to have sleepovers with her because she's getting ill, but this girl would not watch her siblings so we could enjoy date nights, my children are not babies they can feed themselves they just need supervision, my emotions had already manifested into resentment for both of them.

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Bookworm Sep 14, 2019

If you need more advice or need someone to talk, please dont hesitate to reach up for help. I am here for you, sister!

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Bookworm Sep 14, 2019

It upsets me knowing a woman like you isn't happy in her marriage. Sometimes, we women supress our emotions in fear of the consequences if we externalize them. What you don't understand is those emotional wounds will eventually fester and explode. You are clearly harboring resentment towards your husbad because he is indifferent to your needs and you are in your right to. Your ephemeral and fond memories of the good old times and your fear your children will judge you is keeping you from getting a divorce. But what about your feelings? Are you willing to let your youth pass by? When you grow older, you will look back on these days and regret you had not extricated yourself from your shattered marriage. You should never put aside your needs.

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Bookworm Sep 14, 2019

Hi, you should not ignore the way you feel. If your husbad is not satisfying you emotionally anymore, you should talk to him about it. If he doesn't listen to you and keeps neglecting your needs, you need to separate from him.

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