Dear Diary, my boy is maybe getting kicked out of rehab today. He will not make it thru this addiction on his own and there is NOTHING I can do. He will die of an overdose, he will be killed by some other sad/mad/lost human being or he will take his own life. This is a badge I pray I will never wear but it is a possibility. He is a funny guy with a dry, quick sense of humor, engaging smile and handsome baby face. Why doesn't he see this all? He's loving and loved by so many....... I told him he is talking of doing things he cant come back from, things that will permanently change his life course. Lord, help us all through this, I can't do it on my own