October 01, 2021
I've started branching out a little as far as hanging out with other people.
I'm so alone all the time that I'm just hoping somebody invites me to hang
out.
At
this point I don't even care who.
An old friend of mine invited me to come over earlier this week. It wasn't super fun but not terrible either.
I'm just glad it wasn't too awkward, after all we had known each other since 5th grade.
My ex invited me to hangout today as well. Hailey, who I haven't seen in 2 years wants to hangout tomorrow.
I don't know how to feel about it, I didn't turn her down but I'm still on the edge of changing my mind. Why would she want to hang out? What's her motive, and what is she expecting?
My loyalties still and will always be to the girl I love in the moment no matter what.
If I have someone in mind, I don't want anyone else trying anything. I've had my experiences with people crossing lines with me. I don't wanna be touched, kissed or looked in that way by anyone else.
Friends are all that I intend to be with these two and it'd be really upsetting If either of them screw that up when they both know I already have my eyes on someone.
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